One of the bi-products of this last eighteen months of perpetual isolation and encouraged division has been my reluctance to make new friends.
I’m not an introvert, but this season has definitely made me think twice before venturing out to make new friends.
My husband and I have always been involved in church. But with the churches closing their doors, and home teams and Bible study groups breaking apart because of fear and restrictions, we’ve been reluctant to jump back in there. Truth? We got lazy.
For one thing, I feel like I am alone in my viewpoints of this whole plandemic. I feel like the only ones who share my views are a handful of friends (if that) and many of my blogging friends. I swear my whole town has lost their freaking minds. The division, even among my Christian friends, is palpable. I haven’t seen two friends that I used to have lunch with every week in months! I thought our friendship meant more than an injection could tear apart. We aren’t enemies, mind you, I just never hear from them…ever. And it hurts.
Our weekly Bible study group has decided to start meeting again, but over this last year, it’s become clear that our beliefs are very different. Not to mention, the last few times we met, the discussion was more about the plandemic and less and less about the Bible. So, we are looking for a new group.
I reached out to a new group forming with a different church, and they emailed back to me. But here’s where I’m at…I’m terrified to put myself out there again. This town has a bad habit of being very guarded. Even my kids feel it. You can know people for eight years and know nothing about them. And they have no problem walking away. I swear I’m still closer, and feel less judged, by my friends from California than I do here. And I haven’t seen them, other than online, in nine years or more!
And then we have to go through mask or no mask, vaccinated or unvaccinated, etc. So annoying! Is it just me? I mean, how do I approach this? Personally, I don’t care if others are vaccinated or masked or not. I still believe in medical freedom. But do I have to reveal MY personal medical information just to be there? Truly, what’s the decorum on this? We are in unchartered waters here.
Thank you for the encouraging words. I can always count on you guys and ladies. So, I made the phone call and spoke with the new group leader today. She and her husband lead the Bible Study. She seemed nice, and our first meeting is September 14 (masks optional). Praying it works out.